I was thinking about doing a Questions and Answers for a new YouTube video on miscarriages. I thought if people had any questions about miscarriages, how women deal with them, the emotions that go with miscarriages maybe I could help. Maybe I could answer those questions the best way possible that I know. The only question I was asked is "Why Me?"

I started to think about that question and thought "wow,that's a really good question". I also realized that's a BIG question. That's one loaded question and how am I going to answer it. The next thing I know I have all these thoughts going through my mind like crazy and I think  "really Lord what another book or do I just write down my answer and see what happens". I thought "I can't write another book" "I'm not a writer". Then I read a tweet on Twitter that was directed to me that said "you need to keep writing your journey is not done". All I could think was "Yeah Right". My journey is done. I wrote a book and as far as I know it's helping some women which I am totally grateful for. Problem is these thoughts about "Why Me?" won't leave my head. So here I am giving it all up to God and asking Him for the help only He can give me. He's allowing all these thoughts to enter into my mind and if I don't get them down they're gonna drive me crazy.

So Here I am trying my best to answer the question "Why Me?"

"Why Me?" Seems to be the biggest question you will hear from most women when it comes to having a miscarriage. "Why Me Lord?" Why not some other women?" The thing is I don't think I can give you a very good answer. I can try, but I only know my own experiences when it comes to miscarriages. Yeah I asked that very questions myself "Why Me?" Why did I have to have my miscarriages? Now, for me personally I think the reason why God allowed me to have my miscarriages is so that I would look towards Him for support and strength. For me it was kinda like well what's the right thing to do? Walk away from God and try my best to get through my miscarriages on my own or say "Okay God I can't do this on my own it hurts way to much please help me" Deep down in my heart I knew I needed God's help. Without Him my emotional hurt would just get worse. I really believe God allowed me to have my miscarriages so I would allow my relationship with him to grow and get stronger.

I can't even count the amount of times I would ask God "Why Me?" but with each of my three miscarriages I would ask that very question. I believe it was my third and last miscarriage that really had me asking that question "Why Me?" That third and last time is also the one that hurt me the most emotionally. The one where I really needed to look towards God and say " Help Please I can't do this on my own".

You know it's kinda amazing how God can give you an experience like a miscarriage to strengthen a person. It didn't just happen overnight. Each time my emotions got the better of me I would turn to God ask for help, lean on him and say "I can't do this". Then it always felt like God was saying back to me "Yes you can" "let me carry you through this and you will get through it".

What I didn't realize right away is what God was also doing by letting me have my three miscarriages, He was using them to make me talk with my husband more. It was like God was saying "okay I gave you this situation now talk with your husband and see what happens". So I did. I talked with my husband. Then I talked some more and as time went on we talked even more and prayed together. Our marriage became stronger and stronger.

I think the other reason why God allowed me to have my three miscarriages is so that I could become a voice for other women who struggle emotionally from miscarriages too. He has allowed me to become very outspoken about it. Which I can tell you is a very far cry from the way I was about miscarriages when they were actually happening to me. When I was going through my last one I didn't want to talk to anyone about it. I just assume change the topic. I couldn't even look people in the eyes when the topic "miscarriage" came up. I didn't want them to know I went through it. Now after having had mine and seeing what the Lord as done in my life I realize. He has given me this voice to be bold and speak out about miscarriages. To let other women know they aren't alone. That it's okay to be emotional about it. It's ok to cry about it. It's okay to talk about. Now it seems like I'm almost bursting at the seems wanting to let people know, hey miscarriages happen. It's nothing to be embarrassed about. It is however something women need plenty of support with especially their husbands and more importantly trusting in God.

Now the question is how do I answer "Why Me?" for other women. Honestly I don't know if I can. Each women is different. What I do think is after asking that question "Why Me?" women then need to start listening to God for that answer. He's really the only one who has that answer or answer's. He is the one who allows women to have their miscarriages so it makes sense that God is the one they should be asking that question and then seeking him for the answer. I don't know how long it's gonna take for that answer. Maybe he has a ministry for each women who go through having miscarriages. Maybe He wants to see if these women will go to Him and lean on Him. Talk to Him. Pray to Him. Maybe He wants to see their reactions. There are way too many maybes or what it's to this question "Why Me?" I think it's an individual question and answer type thing.

I do believe though if women do turn to God when they ask "Why Me?" He will in time give them an answer. They need to listen though and except whatever His answer maybe. Once women get their answer there will be a peace about it.

I really wish I could give you a better answer than what I just did, but it seems like such a personal question that really needs to be between women and God.

I would also like to add that everything I said above I believe can and should be applied by women who for whatever reason can’t have any children. There is a reason to that “Why Me?” for them too. All women need to be willing to listen to God, trust in Him and do His will for their lives. He will eventually give that much needed answer.